Back again...

ADRIAN!!!!!

I MISS YOU!!!!!

Hmmm... It's like I'm obsess with you again??

You have been messaging me for the straight 2 days. So I'm kinda waiting for your message tonight, but there is no message from you. Kinda miss you tough.

I'm starting to fall for you again??

Don't really know how I feel towards you now. It's like so confusing. Do you still love me?? When i ask you about going back together you told me you are afraid that you are not ready yet. So which means you still love me?? I've told you that I still love you, but you did not say anything back to me.

Hmmm... So many question I want to ask you, but I just don't dare. Owh well...

ADRIAN FONG!!!!

I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!!

Nothing to say

I LOVE YOU

ADRIAN FONG

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P/s: Don't even know why I write this... Just some random stuff that I feel like shouting out from my heart... Although I feel that the love towards you had gone... =)

I remember...

I remember the days that how you broke up with me. Feels like everything just happened yesterday. The pain is still there. How deeply you did hurt me.

I remember the days that how I beg you not to break up with me. How pathetic I am in begging you not to leave me when you don't love me anymore.

I remember the days that how I live without your love. Feels like I'm living in hell. Everything around me are in darkness. It's like the world are against me.

I remember the days that how I used to live without you. Feels like nobody cares for me. Feels like nobody will love me ever again.


These are what I remember when you left me behind with this world, with these pains. I too remember that...

I drink everyday, no matter night or day.
I don't eat for a week cause of you.
I do thinking of killing myself cause the pain that you cause is more than the physical pain.
I have lose weight up to 3 kilograms just a week.
I do cry like hell for you everyday uncontrollably.
I can't sleep soundly for almost 2 weeks.
I did wake up in the middle of the night to message you, telling you how much I've been hurt by you and how I feel.
I do feel lost in this world without you.
I do wish that someday you would come back to me.
I do promise myself that you would be the last person I love in my entire life.
I do promise myself that I will wait for you.

There are a lot of things I would wanna talk to you about. But there is this something that won't allow us to talk to each other? How I wish we would just be close forever but not being a couple which end up like this.

I'm sad and I do feel like crying. But I just have to control myself. It's no use I cry for you anymore. You don't love me anymore. We won't get back together. Hope you can find a better girlfriend than me and live happily ever after. =)

P/s: I LOVE YOU!!!!! <3

Love Is Gone

Now that the love is gone

What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone?

Love is gone

What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone?

There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone!

Now that the love is gone
What felt so right's so wrong
Noe that the love is gone

I feel so hurt inside
Feel so hurt inside
Got to find the reason

What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone?

There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone!

Got to find a reason
Got to find a reason
Got to find a reason to hold

Love, there;s nothing left for us to say, yeah
Love, why can't we turn and walk away?

What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone?

There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone!

Love is gone

The truth

I don't even know where am I suppose to start all these craps.

You break up with me just because you are stressing.
You break up with me just because you don't want the relationship and don't wan me anymore.
You break up with me just because I don't understand you.
You break up with me just like this, leaving everything behind just like that.

How unfair is it. Hurting me this much. Making me living like hell for so many months. Stress? You think I never stress before when I'm with you? So what I'm stress? I bear with it myself. And I'm still continue on with you. I gave you a second chance! But what did you do to me? You didn't give me a single chance! You should tell me that what you want and we can overcome everything! But you did not do that. You just end everything just like that. Our love for each other are fake is it? How can you just say break up then break up?! You just say don want this relationship just like that. Remember how much we love each other?! Our feelings for each other are deep remember? Feelings for each other can say don't want then don't want? I don't think so! I just love you! When you wanna be with me then be with me, when you don't want then you break up with me. Have you ever take me as your girlfriend?!
You said that I don't understand you, but have you ever give me a chance to understand you?! NO!!! NEVER!!!! You never give me a single chance to let me understand you!! You never wanna talk about your things to me!! You always keep stuff to yourself!! I'm your girlfriend that time!! You should tell me everything!! I'm your GIRLFRIEND!!! If we can go through that I think we wont end up this way!! Not talking to each other!! We don't counted as friends even!!
I believe that if we don't break up that time, we would be very happy now!!!!!
ADRIAN FONG!!!!! HOW I WISH YOU CAN COME BACK TO ME!!!!! I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!! BUT... I DON'T THINK YOU STILL NEED ME IN YOUR LIFE ANYMORE!!!!!!

Cracking My Head??

Thinking of making my blog P R I V A T E...

I'm still thinking about it tough. I'm still not sure about it yet. It's kind of me myself revealing too much about my emotions to the outside world? *haha* Need to keep it for some privacy?

I'm gonna consider of making my blog private. Just in case I really private my blog. Do ask me to invitation. If I consider you as a person that can read my blog. *haha*

Now I'm W O N D E R I N G...

When can I let MYSELF go?? Like seriously let myself go. I have no idea when will the day come. Maybe after... After... Actually I don't even know when the day will come. Maybe the day won't come forever? Oh My Gosh... I need to release myself from this.

I wanna have holiday with leaving Kuching and go somewhere there is nobody that I recognize. Living a happy, care free life. Wow... How nice if my wish come true.

I'm SORRY...

I think I did said something wrong

and

I'M SORRY !!!