All I need is you < 3

Adrian, all I NEED is you and your love. Why won't you understand? :( Why won't you understand that how much I love you and need you?
I feel like I've been brought to heaven when I saw you last night at my birthday celebration. There's an urge that I wanna run to your side and hug u tightly, but I can't do that. I need to control myself.

Do you know that you mean so much to me? Not just a friend but everything! I know that I can't move on. I'm sad about it. Do you know that nobody can replace you in my heart? Can you please feel how I feel about you? Why am I so obsess with you? You're like a magnet to me. You keep attracting me towards you and I can't leave you.

Can you please tell me how you feel about me? Can you please share something about you to me like we used to? We used to be so close, but now we're far apart. I seriously love you. I rather stay single forever than finding someone I don't love this much.

How can I ever let go of you? I never love someone so deeply before. God, please help me. =(

Merry Christmas!!

HoHoHo~!!

Merry Christmas Bloggie!

Although I'm kinda late to wish you.

Went to midnight mass on the 24th Dec, then went to eat super duper late supper near the cat statute at Padungan area.

What a sad Christmas.

My phone's screen totally blackout!! OMG!! I can't send my msg greetings to my friends which makes me kinda sad.

I feel like I'm so out dated and so not happening. =(

Owh well, at least Drey is kind enough to lend me her phone.

About this year's Christmas I'm kinda disappointed and sad actually.

Maybe it's because I did not celebrate with the person I love. He did not go to Drey's house even. =(

The best Christmas I ever had was last year. I love last year Christmas.

Actually I don't really know that whether I still love him or not. But if I don't how come I feel like spending every important occasion with him??

How pathetic I am...

I know he doesn't deserves me unless I've change to a better girl. I'm such a pain and I treat guys badly. He deserves someone better.

Anyway, not gonna be emo right now.

And it's time for bed. Night nights~~!!

I love you bloggie, you're the best friend of mine. =)

Emo-ness Strike!!

Can I cry??

It's sad that a person can't be with the person they love.

I so emo right now.

Almost cried when I heard the story.

How I miss those days.

Rearrange my folders in comp last night, and I saw my last time photos with him.

It's sad that we only took a few pictures when we're together.

And why do I still can't let go??

So stupidly I can't let go of him.

Fuck myself Kao Kao.

I'm gonna take this as a challenge and a game man!!

I don't care whatever people think.

I'm gonna do whatever I want!!

I'm gonna win this game once and for all!! =)

I miss you... =(

Owh please tell me why...

Why do I miss him so damn much??

I so desperately wanna see him...

It's been two days I haven't seen him...

I want him!!!

I want ADRIAN FONG YEAN YUNG!!!!!

*sigh*

I can confirm it's only for a while for this feeling to be with me...

I miss you, ADRIAN FONG!!!!

Stupid Johnny. Sure feel so swt right now...

So what??

I still love ADRIAN FONG YEAN YUNG!!!!!

hehe

Joyful time!!!!

Just finish my final exam this morning!! I'm so happy about it!! I can stop studying for like few months!! haha..

Not gonna think about the results first. Making people worried about it only. So, I'm gonna relax first.

There are so many things I wanna do within this holiday man!! Was thinking of loosing weight and working within in this holiday. But I don't think I can do it though.

I don't have the motivation to do it!! I kept saying that I wanna loose weight but I just can't cause of no motivation. For the last time, gonna do it or die for it!!

I'm so damn freaking happy that I'm finally free from studies for almost 3 months. Gonna go KL on January. I hope that I do pass all my test. I don't think I'm gonna go KL if I do fail any of it. *fingers cross*

What about today...
Finish my last paper this morning which is Law. Actually Law it's kinda interesting though. I find it that it's the easiest paper among all the subject?? LOL. I don't know why I have this kind of thought, but I really do think so. =)

After that went to Cory's house for a while before going out for lunch with Johnny, Trice and Cory. Not really satisfy with my lunch. It says mince meat vinegar noodle(i think that's the name), but it came out it's not sour enough and there doesn't really have the vinegar smell and taste.

Went back home after lunch then have a short nap. Only manage to sleep for 2 hours last night. So, having a short nap before attend Daphne's wedding dinner. Ya know what?? We're late!! Soooooooo don't like to be late. But what to do? I thought I can make it on time.

Went to Starbucks after the dinner. Dinner kinda sucks though. Not much of food is being served. Don't expect any photos from me. I don't take pictures and upload in blog. =)

It's late already. I better go get some sleep. Till then folks... Nite nitess... =)

Exam!!!

This will be a short one I guess... =)

I seriously don't like having exams...
Whenever exams comes especially final exams I'll think of him...
You feeling very "swt" right?
I feel the same way too...
Why is he got to do with final exams right?
It's cause before we got together we were like very close, messaging each other 24/7 then when final exam I'm like stressing there's him beside me messaging me and keep me accompany and I do feel less stress...
When I woke up in the middle of the night to study there is always him accompany me...
He do wake me up or I would wake him up to study and messaging each other...
Owh... I do miss those moment...
Now whenever exam comes I do think of him...
Now... There is nobody who would do this...
How I miss it...
Ok... Chaozz... =)

Have you ever??

Have you ever feel lonely?

Have you ever feel like dying?

Have you ever feel nobody cares for you?

Have you ever feel stupid in some way?

Have you ever feel like you shouldn't live in this world?

Have you ever feel like there is nobody belongs to you?

Have you ever feel like nobody really loves you?

Have you ever feel like you're living in this world alone?

Have you ever feel like nobody really understands you?

Have you ever feel so empty before?

Have you ever feel that you got nobody to talk to when you're down?

Have you ever feel like you don't have a true friend?

Have you ever feel that you're good for nothing?

Have you ever feel like there is this random people come in to your life to snatch your precious stuff away from you?

Have you ever feel that people are just using you?

Have you ever lost your lover and a best friend at the same time?

Have you ever suffer like me before?

Have you ever feel how I feel?

I'm dying day by day...

How would I live without you?

You are killing me slowly by leaving me...

*HeartBroken*