10-Dec-10

Read about Alviss Kong's news. It's just so funny that he can just gave himself up like there's nothing to hold on anymore. Is life this fragile? Thinking of after you die you have nothing to worry about. Somewhat that's true. But have you ever think about your parents, friends and the others that loves you? Isn't it selfish that you left them behind with tears and make them suffer in loosing you? Not blaming now or anything. It's funny that you have the courage to jump down from 14th floor, but you don't have the courage to bring yourself up again.

Everybody have been through break up. For that very moment everybody might think they've lost their whole world; they'll never find their happiness anymore. The truth is, it's not. The whole world is always with you, it's just depend on how you see and feel about the world. You create your own happiness, and it doesn't just happen like that. I've been through this. It's just how amazing that I've got through all this and I'm actually proud of myself! Although I'm only halfway recover. Lol

The message that I want to pass to you guys is must appreciate your life and think of your love ones before you do anything stupid. Remember this, loving someone you have to set them free. =)

Still...

L.O.V.E

H.I.M

S.T.I.L.L

<3

My Wishlist~~

Okay okay... I know my blog is so dead and lack of updates.It's just because my life is boring. Plus I lazy wanna take photos and upload photos. So yeah, my blog is full with WORDS. Haha. I'm running out of things to blog, so it has to come to blog about my wishlist. =)

My Wishlist

1. Iphone 4(White)
2. Honda City
   
3. RM 10000 in my saving account
4. Having the ideal guy
5. Good grades for my studies
6. Get my ideal weight, 51kg
7. Have EVERYTHING that I want!
   

That's about it i guess. This is my wishlist for the moment la duh... Can't think of anything that I want right now. Till then.

P/s: just a short update.. =)

My point of view

I H.A.T.E People who is Chinese Educated!!!

Not to say that I'm bad that I look down on Chinese education people, but please la. AT LEAST can speak and write proper English. I don expect people use fluent and flowery English. AT LEAST spell simple words properly. WTF! You can't even spell word and always properly. Zzz.. So out, man! And whats with the acting cute smiley face?! I as a gal don't even use those stupid smiley. Gross, man!!! Gotta change my phone number if can. Haha... =D

~The End~

It's T.H.E. E.N.D!!

The end of what? My final exams la of course!!

Yay! Feeling damn happy right now after my finals, although I'm not so confident about passing all the subjects. LOL

What I'm gonna do next is just rotting myself at home for few weeks and maybe work after that? Feeling lazy to do anything at the moment.

Just wanna stay at home and relax. Other than that, chill out with my friends of course. It's been months that I haven't meet up with my high school friends tho. I miss them!

Till then...

Dreaming~~

Last night I had the sweetest dream ever.

That's what I thought.
Whenever I dream of him, the dream would be I'm back with him again and treat me nicely.
As usual, last night, I dreamed that I'm back with him again.
The only thing different this time is the feel I had in the dream. Somehow in the dream, he did not treat me the way he used to treat me when we're together back then.
I just can't explain how I feel. The way he treat me in my dream makes me feel like things would change better if we're together again.
Maybe it's just me and the dream. I really can't explain how I feel.

He's just so so SOOooo SWEET in the dream...

I'm Back In Action!!

I ' M B A C K ! !

It's been a long time I haven't update my blog. Life still goes on like this as usual. LOL

Nothing much about it. Finals on Monday. Although I've start my revision since 2 weeks ago, but I've got no confident on sitting for the exam.

I'm kinda hyper tonight, somehow.

Owh ya, as you can see. I've change the background. Just got to know that there's new background for blog.

Till then. I love you bloggie. Can always tell you stuff. =)

Wedding dress

Dedicating this song to YOU.

S.H.I.T

Didn't realize that today it's 20th.

FML Big Time!! ='(

Plus Receiving this kind of News on this date.

Fuck! It really meant A LOT to me.

='(

I'm dead... Again~~

It's sooo DAMN funny that I'm actually wondering how many times my heart can die for the same guy and back alive again..

My heart was tearing apart this afternoon when I heard "about the news". Omg!! I can't even relief it out!! Cause there were friends with me and I'm outside a shopping mall. It's so so so soooooo hard for me to control myself not to cry it out loud. When I keep trying not to burst into tears I feel that my heart was aching plus wanna vomit. Then I ran into the toilet. Finally I burst into tears. It's the first time I cried in a shopping malls' toilet. WTF!!

That's not the end of story. When I was playing with Karen's Iphone. I accidentally read her message which a friend sent to her. The message was saying that Karen's friend saw HIM at Boulevard with two girls and one guy. I bet it's a double date tho. Sigh. Why do God wanna let me know more about it? I've been sad enough.

I actually feel like something is slaughtering me apart inside. My heart is been tearing apart and being throw into a rubbish dump. Plus I feel like hurting myself to relief all those pain. I even feeling kinda angry at myself for everything. I really feel like inside of me is dying. I might as well die soon.

Whatever it is. I hope that she's better than me (I know she is). Hope that she take care of you like nobody do. No matter what there's still somebody out there waiting and cares for you.

May God bless both of you.

Have No Guts!!

When I'm half awake just now, I wish that something or somebody would take over my body and using my phone to text him. At least when the message had sent to him I would have an excuse saying that it wasn't me who send the message and it was somebody else taking over my body and messaged him. Another excuse would be I'm blur and I maybe sleep walking by messaging him in a blur condition.

Omg! I damn fucking NO guts!!

I'm afraid that I would receive a harsh replied message from you. Plus is like I'm messaging him for nothing. I'm afraid that he would think that I'm annoying. I've been promising myself to have the guts to text him since two weeks ago. I'M PATHETIC!!!!!

God, please bless me and give me the strength to overcome my cowardliness act.
*Amen*

Long time No See. =)

Hey Bloggie!!

It's been a long time I did not update you..

Nothing's change except that the fact Jason Kiu a.k.a. Ang ge passed away. =(

I still really can't accept this bloody fact. *Sigh*

Despite of that, I still LOVE HIM. Like duh~~

Owh ya, I have a foster brother. Or should I say that I got two foster brothers.

One of them is Kevin Tan2 and another is Danny Chung.

Danny Chung not pass one, he only know how to talk crap when we're emo.

We include me and Trice. *Lol*

Nothing much that I wanna say actually.

I just wanna tell you that I still LOVE HIM.

Wondering when can I let go of him. =)

Again~

And again... My heart is bleeding.

And again... My heart is aching.

And again... My tears drop because of you.

And again... My mind is full of your images.

And again... My love for you is coming back.

Again And Again...

I still love you!!

I want you back, but I know it's impossible.

So, I think I'll still be waiting.

FML

I just feel like staying at home tonight and chilling at home with my other half...

But, it's sad that I don't have that other half to stay at home with me. =(

Reblog: Until You <3

Until You

Baby, life was good...

But you just made it better...

I love the way you stand by me through any kind of weather...


I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day...

When you feel the world is on your shoulders...

I don't wanna make it worse, just wanna make us work...

Baby, tell me I will do whatever...


It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me...

It feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me...

It feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me...

Baby, nobody, nobody until you...


Baby, it just took one hit of you...

Now I'm addicted...

You never know whats missing...

Till you get everything you needed...


I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day...

When you feel the world is on your shoulders...

I don't wanna make it worse, just wanna make it work...

Baby, tell me i will do whatever...


It feels like nobody knew me until you knew me...

It feels like nobody loved me until you loved me...

It feels like nobody touched me until you touched me...

Baby, nobody, nobody until you...


See it was enough to know, if I ever let you go...

I would be no one...

Cause I never thought I'd feel all the things you made me feel...

Wasn't looking for someone, oh, until you...


It feels like nobody knew me until you knew me...

It feels like nobody loved me until you loved me...

It feels like nobody touched me until you touched me...

Baby, nobody, nobody...


It feels like nobody knew me until you knew me...

It feels like nobody loved me until you loved me...

It feels like nobody touched me until you touched me...

Baby, nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, until you...

Lol. I keep repeating this song and DAMN!! I still F-ing love it!! Not because of him for this time. Just feel a little stress and emo that's why listen to this song. It actually make me feel better. Till then UNTIL YOU.

I LOVE YOU. =)

All I need is you < 3

Adrian, all I NEED is you and your love. Why won't you understand? :( Why won't you understand that how much I love you and need you?
I feel like I've been brought to heaven when I saw you last night at my birthday celebration. There's an urge that I wanna run to your side and hug u tightly, but I can't do that. I need to control myself.

Do you know that you mean so much to me? Not just a friend but everything! I know that I can't move on. I'm sad about it. Do you know that nobody can replace you in my heart? Can you please feel how I feel about you? Why am I so obsess with you? You're like a magnet to me. You keep attracting me towards you and I can't leave you.

Can you please tell me how you feel about me? Can you please share something about you to me like we used to? We used to be so close, but now we're far apart. I seriously love you. I rather stay single forever than finding someone I don't love this much.

How can I ever let go of you? I never love someone so deeply before. God, please help me. =(