Back...

It's been almost two weeks I have not update my blog.
Had been out non stop in these two weeks. Kinda tired but hell it's fun!!! Nothing really much happen in these two weeks. Just a simple, dull life. The only thing I actually remember happened this week is I got angry. It's been a long long long long DAMN long time since I really got angry with somebody. But actually I'm okay after the few minutes later. Can't really get angry with somebody for so long. Plus I don't like myself being angry. It's kinda freaking people out. And also freaking myself out. I'm very scary when I'm angry.

PLus, I've been haunting for clothes for these few days. But too bad nothing really catches my eyes. Clothes in Kuching either it's too expensive or it's not nice. Saw this Kimono dress which is nice but it cost bloody RM99. It's so damn freaking expensive. I can get this kind of Kimono dress for RM34 at blogshop. But yesterday I bought a shirt from Esprit which only cost RM49.90. So happy! Cause it's cheap but ofcourse la. There's a sale going on, if not I wont get such a nice shirt for so cheap which is branded. *haha*

p/s: gonna hunt for more clothes!!!!!!! =)

Time has come...

H m m m m m m m m m m m

I guess the time has come

*wink*

Hard time

It's just hard to find someone who you truly love with all your heart.

What more to say find someone who is truly love you with all his or her heart.

And it's like when you were thinking that you just found the right one for you but it turn out that actually it's not.

Or even you think that he or she is the right one for you but it tuen out to be the opposite from the other party.

How sad can that be?!

Sometimes things just don't go to the way you want to.

That's life.

No matter how sad is it, how suffering is it, how unacceptable is it, how harsh is it.

You still have to bear and deal with it.

THAT'S LIFE!!!

It's just sad that you can't get the things that you want or the way you want something to be.

What I'm trying to say here is I'm still learning how to deal with the sad facts which I had a hard time in accepting it.

I still need time to deal with it.

I need a very very very damn very long time to deal with it.

I'm sorry if any of my attitude make you guys feel uneasy.

I'm saying sorry cause someone told me something about it.

I have feelings.

Those feelings just kept coming back and I'm trying to deal with it too.

If I'm wasn't so serious about it I wont have a hard time dealing with those facts and feelings already.

I do understand that things can't go back anymore.

No more feelings means NO MORE.

It's the end, Buhhhhhh Bye.

I still need time and I'm not trying to hold something here.

I hope the day that I really forget everything just come sooner or faster.

Oh My Gosh!!!

OH
MY
GOSH
!!!

OH
MY
GOSH
!!!

OH
MY
GOSH
!!!

OH
MY
GOSH
!!!

OH
MY
GOSH
!!!

PLEASE DON'T LET ME SEE AND THINK ABOUT THE PAST... I CAN'T BEAR TO BE EMO AGAIN... I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT THE SAD, SUFFERING AND THOSE HURTING MOMENTS I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS YEAR...
I'M SCARED OF IT...

Question!!!

I have a question!! I have a question!!

Can Anybody tell me why people like to keep things in their heart?? And not saying it out?? Even the closest person they also wont speak out their problems!! How come huh?? For example, my Dad. Even he got a big big big problem he wont tell my Mum. How come huh?? It's like they have been living with each other for half of their life and yet my Dad don't even wanna tell what had happen. Oh My Gosh! It's like so weird man! You can't even trust your own wife? Or you don't wan your wife to suffer from it also? Aren't husband and wife should bear with happiness and sadness together? Why can't you just speak up?! My Mum kinda suffer with my Dad's attitude. It's kinda suffering that knowing the love ones is in trouble and have problem bothering them but don't even know what is it and can't help in anything. WootS!! I can feel the pain eh.

Daddy ar Daddy... People out there ar people out there... Don't keep everything to yourself. Don't you know that your love ones and people who care about you is suffering also? Speak up your mind please. =)

p/s: I notice that mostly the horoscope sign that like to hide their feelings and problem is VIRGO sign. As you can see my Daddy is a Virgo, ,my best friend is a Virgo and don't like to speak up also, Him is a Virgo also and Jayson is a Virgo and we don't really know anything about him.

Truly Madly Deeply

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy, I'll be your hope
I'll be your love, be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath truly, madly, deeply, do
I will be strong, I will be faithful

Because I am counting on a new beginning
A reason for living a deeper meaning yeah~~

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shinning brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven that will make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection

Of the highest power and lonely hours
The tears divide you

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be you dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy, I;ll be your hope
I'll be your love be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath truly, madly, deeply, do

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea, yeah~~
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna play with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain

Tired...

Don't know what had got into me again. Feeling so down the whole night. How come huh? Mood swing again? Don't think so. I'm just feeling very very down. Plus I feel very tired also. Don't feel like thinking so much and using my brain anymore. I wanna be dead!! Can't I just stop using my brain for 1 day? Just 1 day. I'm tired of living! Not that I wanna die or what. I just wanna have a rest for my brain. Not thinking of anything. And I'm tired of not knowing why I suddenly feeling so down. Seriously don't know why. It's like everything jumble up in my mind. Lots of thinking... Lots and lots of thinking... I don't like. Why must I have a complicated brain. How come it looks like I'm the only one who think this much? Or maybe you people out there think as much as me and even think more than me but you guys just keep it to yourself and didn't tell anybody. =)

What else can I say. This is me and that is you. We are different. I know that. And for me adopting people's attitude is 1 thing I would wanna try out. Wanna feel like keeping things to myself and wanna know how people feel like if I'm keeping things to myself.