Got a free counseling session from Jayson today...
Hey... Jayson... Thanks for the counseling ya...
Although it's kinda not working... Haha
Sorry ba... I very stubborn...
"Why won't you stop something which is bad when you have the choice to stop it?".... That's what Jayson ask me...
Sometime it's not that we don't wanna stop the bad things....
It's just that we DON'T KNOW how!!!
So we have to live with it!!!
Which make my life kinda live like hell now...
It's like I tend to emo everyday after I had break up with him... =P
I'm trying not to emo everyday...
But it turn out that I kinda emo everyday...
I get hurt easily...
I maybe look strong from the outside, but from the inside I'm fragile....
.
I'm just like any other girls outside there which need people to care for and need lots of love...
It will take me a long time to recover...
Really really long!!!!
It had been 1 month plus that we had broke up...
I still never thinking of giving up on you....
Maybe few years from now?? Hehe
The professional say: We only need to do something continuously for 3 to 4 months to get a habit...
That's true!!!
We had been continuously sms-ing each other for about 8 months counted in the days that we been together for 24/7....
Then now I suddenly can't message him...
Do you know how SAD is that??
It's easy to have a habit...
But, it's hard to put away a habit....
Ya, sure we need to try to put away the habit...
But it's hard!!!
I'm trying very hard now, but it seems like it's not working...
Do you know that YOU are the one who is on my mind when I wake up everyday??
The first think I think of when I wake up it's also YOU!!!
And YOU are the one who I think of before I sleep...
Had you ever heard the song Everytime from Britney Spears??
It's reflecting how I really feel now...
I DON'T KNOW how to give up on YOU...
You had given me the best memories and it wont fade away no matter what...
You are the one that I love...
You are always the best to me....
You are the guy that worth for me to wait and love....
You always said that you are not worth for me to love you and you also said that you are not a good guy....
For me YOU ARE!!!!!!!
It's because there is no reason for me to give up on YOU!!!!!
YOU are all that I wanted...
I admit that I don't even know what love is in the first place...
I'm sorry that I said I want to change YOU to the person that I want...
To the perfect person...
I'm SORRY!!!!!
I had love you in a wrong way...
Now I've learn my lesson...
I've should had love you who YOU are...
I just need another chance to cover up my mistake and love you in a different way and I believe that we will work out very well...
I SWEAR!!!
I'm willing to wait for YOU for a year or more...
As long as YOU come back to me...
YOU need a break I'll give YOU the break that YOU want...
It's because YOU are worth for me to wait...
I seriously hope that YOU will give me another chance to LOVE YOU in a correct way...
*praying*
And I feel different without YOU....
I LOVE YOU...
Hey... Jayson... Thanks for the counseling ya...
Although it's kinda not working... Haha
Sorry ba... I very stubborn...
"Why won't you stop something which is bad when you have the choice to stop it?".... That's what Jayson ask me...
Sometime it's not that we don't wanna stop the bad things....
It's just that we DON'T KNOW how!!!
So we have to live with it!!!
Which make my life kinda live like hell now...
It's like I tend to emo everyday after I had break up with him... =P
I'm trying not to emo everyday...
But it turn out that I kinda emo everyday...
I get hurt easily...
I maybe look strong from the outside, but from the inside I'm fragile....
.
I'm just like any other girls outside there which need people to care for and need lots of love...
It will take me a long time to recover...
Really really long!!!!
It had been 1 month plus that we had broke up...
I still never thinking of giving up on you....
Maybe few years from now?? Hehe
The professional say: We only need to do something continuously for 3 to 4 months to get a habit...
That's true!!!
We had been continuously sms-ing each other for about 8 months counted in the days that we been together for 24/7....
Then now I suddenly can't message him...
Do you know how SAD is that??
It's easy to have a habit...
But, it's hard to put away a habit....
Ya, sure we need to try to put away the habit...
But it's hard!!!
I'm trying very hard now, but it seems like it's not working...
Do you know that YOU are the one who is on my mind when I wake up everyday??
The first think I think of when I wake up it's also YOU!!!
And YOU are the one who I think of before I sleep...
Had you ever heard the song Everytime from Britney Spears??
It's reflecting how I really feel now...
I DON'T KNOW how to give up on YOU...
You had given me the best memories and it wont fade away no matter what...
You are the one that I love...
You are always the best to me....
You are the guy that worth for me to wait and love....
You always said that you are not worth for me to love you and you also said that you are not a good guy....
For me YOU ARE!!!!!!!
It's because there is no reason for me to give up on YOU!!!!!
YOU are all that I wanted...
I admit that I don't even know what love is in the first place...
I'm sorry that I said I want to change YOU to the person that I want...
To the perfect person...
I'm SORRY!!!!!
I had love you in a wrong way...
Now I've learn my lesson...
I've should had love you who YOU are...
I just need another chance to cover up my mistake and love you in a different way and I believe that we will work out very well...
I SWEAR!!!
I'm willing to wait for YOU for a year or more...
As long as YOU come back to me...
YOU need a break I'll give YOU the break that YOU want...
It's because YOU are worth for me to wait...
I seriously hope that YOU will give me another chance to LOVE YOU in a correct way...
*praying*
And I feel different without YOU....
I LOVE YOU...
